As most little girls, I dreamed of a family. I wanted a husband and children and a house. I actually prayed for this life so much that if I stop and take a breath, I cry. My broken life spurred a dream of perfection. My grandmother gave me the calm guidance to get here. God provided me the path. Ryan gave me the love and life I wanted and dreamed of. God gave me all of these people and opportunities. But tonight I realized that one prayer is answered. It isn't my Prince Charming, although he is everything I never knew I wanted and needed. It isn't my family. It's my baby. She is the one thing I did right, even if she came before we hoped and planned. She is my answered prayer. All I wanted in life was and is to give my children everything I never had. My parents made mistakes yes, but I always knew they loved me.
My baby is coming to parents who already love her. Her family knows her name and is excited for her arrival. My friends love her already too. She's going to have parents. Both parents. She's my little answered prayer. Today I bought these cute dresses because I needed to envision her. I needed to be excited. It has been hard with Ryan being gone. But now we've both seen her. We're getting ready for you sweet one. We love you! He has felt her kicks now, and I'm growing at rapid speed! I'm halfway there!
